heavensake: (just for two)

[personal profile] heavensake 2023-04-15 08:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Good wordy or bad wordy?
liquidsky: (I know you don't)

[personal profile] liquidsky 2023-04-15 08:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Look.

It's all metaphors.

I barely know what you are trying to say and I KNOW what you are trying to say.
heavensake: (faster)

[personal profile] heavensake 2023-04-15 08:46 pm (UTC)(link)
So I should ... I should rework it more?

I wanted to go for casual and friendly with a hint of artistic expression.

Hence my poem.
liquidsky: (is myself)

[personal profile] liquidsky 2023-04-15 08:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Aziraphale.

Our family takes the bible literally. They won't understand your poem. They will think you are actually turning into a butterfly before they'll understand that you are coming out to them.
heavensake: (love you)

[personal profile] heavensake 2023-04-15 08:50 pm (UTC)(link)
I see. You have a good point.

I just don't know how to do it best. I don't wish to burn bridges but I do wish to be clear and final with it all. But also I don't want to be too blunt about things.
liquidsky: (loyalty is relative)

[personal profile] liquidsky 2023-04-15 08:51 pm (UTC)(link)
So you don't want to do it my way, is what you are saying.
heavensake: (grow faster)

[personal profile] heavensake 2023-04-15 08:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Swearing and yelling and never seeing them again?

Well, mostly, yes.
liquidsky: (yeah I do)

[personal profile] liquidsky 2023-04-15 08:56 pm (UTC)(link)
I can feel your disapproval radiating, but you've no idea how good that felt back then. How good it still feels.

Have you thought about a very simple note? Maybe set yourself a word limit.
heavensake: (Come on and sit)

[personal profile] heavensake 2023-04-15 08:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes, yes, smart. It's just hard.

I want to do it this week. I set myself a deadline. By the weekend.

I wish to be out by then. In every sense of that phrase.
liquidsky: (but we'll see where it goes)

[personal profile] liquidsky 2023-04-15 08:59 pm (UTC)(link)
You can come stay with me.

Why the sudden rush? I welcome it. I'm surprised, however.
heavensake: (set my alarm)

[personal profile] heavensake 2023-04-15 09:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you.

I don't know exactly.

I met a man. Just to clarify, it was not romantic but he said something to me that I can't shake and I believe he was right. I must do this now or I'll never do it and how sad is that?
liquidsky: (who knows what I'm thinking?)

[personal profile] liquidsky 2023-04-15 09:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Not romantic. I see. Was it a handsome man, by any chance?

What did he say?
heavensake: (feel much better)

[personal profile] heavensake 2023-04-15 09:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Well yes, he's ridiculously handsome but that was just my curse to bear. It wasn't his looks, it was the way he spoke.

He told me that I could be wanted. And it is a small thing to say but we were talking a lot and... maybe I want that. To be wanted by someone and loved by someone. Maybe books aren't enough.
liquidsky: (I probably know your thoughts)

[personal profile] liquidsky 2023-04-15 09:10 pm (UTC)(link)
There's something exhilarating about being wanted for who you are and what you're choosing to express.

Someone like you should have someone. I agree with that.

Loneliness kills slowly.
heavensake: (where do you get it from)

[personal profile] heavensake 2023-04-15 09:13 pm (UTC)(link)
I sometimes wonder if I'm not strong enough. If this is a test and I am failing. But I do not think God could be this cruel.

And if he is this cruel, I don't think I like him much.

This God, he would not love you. And therefore, I would... not love him either.
liquidsky: (what I'm loyal to)

[personal profile] liquidsky 2023-04-15 09:15 pm (UTC)(link)
If God is real, he can fuck off.

Look what he's done to you.

Stop believing in what makes you miserable, Aziraphale. You were always such an optimist. Always smiling. Believe in what makes you happy.
heavensake: (miss you)

[personal profile] heavensake 2023-04-15 09:20 pm (UTC)(link)
I believe in love. Love is beautiful and good, no matter what people say.

If I was daring and brave, if I was impulsive, if I no longer have God on my side - will I still be loved, dear brother?
liquidsky: (but we'll see where it goes)

[personal profile] liquidsky 2023-04-15 09:22 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't love you for God's sake. Nobody worth your notice does.

If love is conditional, it's worthless. Worse than that. If love is conditional, it takes a toll on you.
heavensake: (where did you go)

[personal profile] heavensake 2023-04-15 09:24 pm (UTC)(link)
I never loved you with condition. I always loved you.

I am rewriting my letter now. Can I send it to you again?
liquidsky: (yeah I do)

[personal profile] liquidsky 2023-04-15 09:24 pm (UTC)(link)
You are a rarity.

Send it. Keep it brief.
heavensake: (we can do the tango)

[personal profile] heavensake 2023-04-15 09:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Dear family,

I'm afraid I'm too queer to remain here.
I will not come back.
Please don't contact me.

Aziraphale.
liquidsky: (loyalty is relative)

[personal profile] liquidsky 2023-04-15 09:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Perfection.

When are you coming over?
heavensake: (I miss those long hot summer nights)

[personal profile] heavensake 2023-04-15 09:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Is tonight too late?

If I don't do it now, I never will.
liquidsky: (beyond anyone)

[personal profile] liquidsky 2023-04-15 09:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Do you need me to pick you up?

I can be there in half an hour.
heavensake: (feel much better)

1/?

[personal profile] heavensake 2023-04-15 09:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Half an hour. Yes. Yes, I can do that

2/?

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