"I don't think it's the best place, no, but I'm not sure what else to do. I didn't mean to leave, I just wanted to see some grass, touch the flowers and then everything was bad again. I've been wandering for about a day and--and I'm a little stuck." He had no money, no knowledge, no protection and he had no idea what to do outside of the institution. "I should probably go back there but I don't think I like it there. Not that the people aren't-aren't jolly lovely it's just, erm, it's just that it's very... lonely."

He looked at Anthony and attempted a smile. "I was thinking I could try again out here but I don't think I belong here either." So death had seemed like the better option.